Friday, October 23, 2009

In Love With My Best Friend

How can time pass so slowly and so ridiculously fast at the same time?? I can't believe that in 2 months I can talk to Jarem on the phone again! It seems like a week ago it was Mothers Day and I was talking to him. Wow, time flies!

I just got 2 incredible letters today from Jarem and I literally feel like my heart is broken. It has officially burst from the inside out!! I cry when I think of how unselfish and loyal he is. To think of his sacrifice and hard work. His diligence to the Lord and his devotion to me. Other people who "fall into love" become so absorbed in the physical presence and appearance of that person that they can't feel the true, deep, bond that truly holds you together. I can't find words to express how it feels to have this kind of bond in your life. To know that you can heave every single ounce of energy and effort, all the hope and faith you are capable of giving and all of your dreams into one person... and never be disappointed.

At this time, Jarem is unsure of the next step in his mission due to heath concerns. I feel completely comfortable and at ease. I pray until the skin on my knees is raw for my sweetheart. He can not fail with the Lord on his side and I know that as a dedicated messenger of the Savior, Jarem is divinely protected and watched over. If I literally lived a million years spending every single day in worship, it would not touch the amount of gratitude and love I have for my Heavenly Father; for all my blessings but especially Jarem. I love him with a love no earthy being could understand. This time apart is so bitter, but it will make our time together more sweet than anyone could imagine. Jarem, I love you. It seems empty writing it on a screen, but with my whole heart I mean it when I say it. I LOVE you.