Wednesday, April 29, 2009

I'm trading in Jarem for a newer model!

Alright, I admit... I wouldn't trade Jarem in for anything the world could possibly offer, but his poor body should have come with a warranty! I found out the wonderful news today that he will probably need another surgery (it's a different problem this time, what a huge surprise). It is really hard for me. It truly is the most difficult thing I have ever had to do... to be almost 5,000 miles away from my best friend while he suffers (with multiple ailments) and is in pain. It is killing me softly! :) I can't do ANYthing! I want to just throw in the towel and quit! The only 2 things that are keeping me from going insane are:
1) It is literally impossible for me to be tried with a challenge I can't overcome
2) I love Jarem enough to not impede on his mission or distract him from the work

Jarem, I'm so sorry you have to go through all that you have been asked to. Actually, I'm not necessarily sorry. I'm glad you have challenges, but I am sorry that I can't share your burdens and make your load lighter. I would do anything to help ease your pain. I know I have a testimony of the gospel and the work that you are taking forth to all the world. I can't give in now. I won't. I love you. I love you more than I did yesterday when I woke up! One day, when I can see you again and all of this (insert choice of negative word) is behind us, these difficult times will make our happy times even more sweet. I can't tell you how much I love you. I will support you through whatever storms you're asked to pass through. You are the love of my life, and I would not have it any other way. Miss you lots! Love you even more! -Ashley