Thursday, November 26, 2009

It just keeps getting better!

I spent a lot of time with my friends last week. We went and saw New Moon midnight showing and it was bloody fantastic!! It was so much fun! I love my friends! They have seen me at my craziest and understand me when I'm being a hormonal wreck. :) But I have learned something very very tender to my heart.

No matter how excited and hyper I am to see a movie I bought tickets for 2 months in advance, or how many activities I do with my friends or with youth groups, there is always something missing. There is an unmistakable void that nothing can quite ever fill. People tell me all the time to go out and have fun (which I do) and to enjoy life (which I am). But I have realized something I will be forever grateful for.

Nothing in this world makes me as happy as Jarem does. Nothing has ever given me the feeling of pure joy like being with Jarem did. I miss him so so much. He is my BEST friend, my companion, my advocate, and my support. I aspire to be my noblest, most virtuous self when I am around him, and I don't deserve to have someone this good. But here he is, and I'm going to give every ounce of energy to prepare myself for all that is ahead of us. I love you, so very very much Jarem. Being in love with you... it just keeps getting better!!!!!